Mostly I'm wondering how people's experiences of fear on trips compare.
I tripped with a friend not so long ago. Because of a bad setting (which I knew was bad immediately, but tripped anyway), I spent the entire time up and down with panic. Not really bad, but close to the sort of fears you don't want to have. It's one of those trips that make you feel like your new born into the world afterwards.
It's very hard to explain. But, I remember afterwards trying to explain to the person I was with. The smile you have is deep as though the person you're talking to knows everything. Something in your mind has almost made the person you're speaking to into the sort of "spirit" or "god" that you have apparently been connecting with, as though he has been with you and sees your life as you do. But, regardless, he has been in an entire different place. Somehow the "bad" setting didn't play a part in his trip, and he doesn't understand.
I find it remarkable that he was unaffected by the bad setting. I'd say that fear is a definite hurdle in almost everyone of my trips. I think the fear is what makes it worth doing. If I'm not approaching something really fearful, I don't think things are right; If I'm not moving through them, cautiously. But the problem is that this fear is the hard sort of fear. The fear of being tortured, being killed, etc. Things that are hard to conceive otherwise. It isn't something physically scary, the monster is a proposition of death and pain or death and pain for everything else, endlessly, a destruction of morality and supposed goodness. And what is more fearful, the supposition that all of it is necessary!
Though, it isn't necessary. But, the world can occasionally take on a character as though it was telling you that you have no choice. It tricks you and speaks directly to you. It says that it is necessary. It's a difficult thing for sure.
What I wonder is what is the nature of your fear during a trip?
Edited by Guy1298, 19 January 2017 - 06:34 PM.