My best friend for the last 2 years and 8 months has passed away.
She was my darling, precious, sweet, playful, loving, beautiful little sweetheart. I gave her all my love, completely, and I'm sure she knew it.
Even though she was little, and not born of my body, she was still very much a person to me, and had a soul just as precious as as any I have encountered. She came into my life by accident, and I have felt lucky every moment that I knew her.
I looked forward to seeing her when I was at work. I spoke to her out loud in front of people I worked with, not caring how stupid I sounded apparently talking to myself. I would say "don't worry baby, mommy's coming home soon!" and when I walked through the door I would hear a scuffle. She would jump up and grab the wall of her cage, clearly excited to see that I'm home, and ready to come out and have her bath and then play with me to settle down between my boobs while I watched Netflix or stand on my shoulder while I typed on the computer.
She was my best friend, my adopted daughter, my sweet baby.
I'm going to miss my rituals of cleaning her cage, getting her food prepped for her, giving her baths in the sink, cleaning up her little poopies.
I miss her so much I feel like my heart is breaking. I'm not a religious person any more, but I do feel that there is more going on in life than meets the eye. I have broken down and begged god to tell me I would see her again, if there's anything like an afterlife or anything like heaven. My experiences on psychedelics tell me that there is another world where all our energy and vibration sings forever, where we are all together and none of us is ever really alone.
My world is gray, the room is silent, and all I have is love with no one to give it to. I feel like I'm dying and I need to hear the echo come back from her little heart, swelling with happiness and love and appreciation, telling me "hello mommy! i've missed you! thank you for loving me so much. i love you too!"
Here's to my little sweetpea. I will love you forever Monkie.
Edited by darci, 16 March 2017 - 06:48 AM.