Hey Topiates! I really miss you guys. Maybe many of the people here now don't even know me, but those of you who did, know I've been battling my own maturity (for the lack of a better way of summing it up.) I posted on here about wanting a threesome and hating my family and such like that.
I've finally reached (some level) of maturity. I've started to work on my vibration instead of wallowing in misery. I've started to discipline myself and family into cleaning, worked on controlling my anger and stress levels, both at home and at work. I've focused my minds eye to manifesting the next things in my life. After about 12 years of searching, I've finally done LSD, and it has taught me even more. Learning to control my own state, no matter what is happening around me. Grooming myself. Getting up earlier, meditation. Putting a routine on my life.
Another weird thing. Very very very very weird for me. I've decided to give myself to religious practices. I've talked about religion quite a bit here before, but for those who don't know, I believe in many different things from many different religions. My essential belief is that all the books and religions mean one thing to me. That there is something. And it communicates with us. And since I have found something in my own life to fith that same description, it's easy to believe someone else has this experience. But I also take them all with a grain of salt because there are many possible translations, misinterpretations, and outright forgeries. I loved and hated religion. I personally enjoy it, but it seems like it something that some people can't handle. Stops people from thinking for themselves. So I didn't believe in religious practice, just spirituality
However, I have decided to return to pagan practices. For a few reasons.
1. When I was a teenager, I practiced Wicca, At that time, I experienced the spirit realm greater than almost any other experience I've had OTHER than the psychedelia.
2. My wife is a Celtic pagan. And she wants to teach the kids this as their base idea of God, of course I'll teach them Shamanism as well.
3. And it helps me gain discipline and structure. And DMT has taught me the reality of the power of magick, and I have been touched by it.
It's like I almost believe all religions, but I have just chose my favorite one.
Edited by Akari, 12 September 2017 - 10:18 AM.