Mooji says that "what to do?," is, "the mantra of the mind."
Let me start with, "I am not this." In these human expressions we are all initially conditioned into an identity. If and when this identity is seen to be made up of thought and belief, these out of memory and imagination of experiences, the story is there, even if it is a phantom. In seeing that we are not the identity in our story, we can still see it all as a story. We, as unidentified seeing, might have come to the point where we won't so easily be bullshitted by the conditioning. This can free us of being slave to acting in character, which, as we can see in the life, some expressions will take a character to the point of being a danger to themselves and others. Short of this extreme, seeing that no such identity actually exists as such, what Hedderman calls, "you travel lighter," becomes natural to the underlying prior clear seeing. Okay?
The body/mind identity remains, if only so I can be typing this out on this keyboard. The personal identity is of the stuff it, and we all, are made of. It's just a more limited expression of it. We can see through the limited eye of our stories, but we can also be in and of the freedom of the prior awareness. I say "prior" because I have seen that the seeing, the being, all of what I am is always first on the scene. Only then can what I am not make something of it. As identity, we make something of everything. There has to be 'us and it' for us to stay being us, as a perception of a something. But we never were that image of being we believe and think. That being is a virtual existence. Awareness is first on the scene, before the scene is there.
The question, "am I aware," as I brought up above, is a great clue, as it shows us that awareness is what knows awareness, and we see it by being it, here and now. No other place and time offers this vision. For myself (so to speak), that being aware of being aware is a wonderful and great way to know knowing. It takes me instantly beyond the limitation of the knowing of this and that, which are in time and always a remove away from being. Here is where my divorce from conditioned identity finally starts to dawn. There is no identification except as something that is separate from all that is. So, I am not that identity, and this I can see, if honest about it. This is where the doer fades away, yet in the play of it, it all gets done, and the traveling is so much lighter.
I have never been one to be disciplined enough for most formal practices. This is speaking as this, 'my' expression in the form. If 'you' can know any encounter with seeing as awareness being only awareness, take that seeing into your practice, letting it be there without name or description. Whatever rises in mind, watch it pass. Everything in seeing comes and goes, except the seeing. If the seeing seems punctuated, use your hindsight to see that even the seeming spaces in seeing are seen. Don't worry if attention is not perfect. Awareness is not our mind's attention. Attention is there, high up in the mind's "what to do" list. That can be seen too, in awareness, being there first, always.
We might even endeavor to make something of awareness. I know I can't say what it is. It is what expresses in every form, and it holds infinity in reserve, should we try to nail it down, even to that.
Tao Te Ching
Something mysteriously formed,
Born before heaven and earth.
In the silence and the void,
Standing alone and unchanging,
Ever present and in motion.
Perhaps it is the mother of ten thousand things.
I do not know its name.
Call it Tao.
For lack of a better word, I call it great.
Edited by Alder Logs, 28 January 2018 - 09:24 PM.