The highs are incredible. Every time they come, they come with so much insight that I think I understand reality, filled with peace. But, the high wanes.
In the summer, I remember trying to maintain it as well. I was trying to maintain it this time to. Through both periods. At this point, the highs and insight have come and gone three times. Often lasting for 5 days or so.
I suppose this will be an issue as they come and go in the future, if they come and go. Best to get quiet next time I get that high. I don't really require understanding from other people, but the high is far out sometimes. I think I do a good job of making it reasonable though.
It's the same sort of high and mental state that opens people up around you. People around you are smiling more, talking about themselves more, etc. I teach and the sense of the students that I teach is completely shifted. All on account of a shift in my mental state.
There are also strange coincidences that make things feel a bit more out there. This is me making sense of it. I'd like it to be what I see at the peak of the high. But, right now it doesn't feel that way. How does someone make it reasonable? I doubt the highs will become reasonable, ever. But, it might be worth taking the magic out of its interpretation. Life is already magic. It must be something that is never lost. The highs are seemingly lost, so they aren't it.