This thread was actually a good read, at least the parts where people used their own words. I also think we all visit forums in order to project ourselves onto a larger or different canvas than what's available to us locally. Thank you for sharing :)
Here's my two cents and you're only paying that if you go VIP
You're WAY overthinking everything. It has the effect of chasing what you're after away rather than drawing it toward you. You have to at the very least give your mind a window or door thru all that chatter. I'm guessing you haven't done it yet but for non frequent shroomers it usually takes 4.5-5 grams to sort of force an entirely different experience. The problem in doing amounts between say 3.5 and 4.5 grams is your objective reality is getting scrambled and the more scrambled it gets the more your false ego tries to hold on, because it can only exist in objective reality. What happens is you can't let go because of fear and social programming, but you can't quite hang on either.
Taking a threshold dose more or less forces you to let go, you're entire reality is disintegrating and you along with it. There's not a damned thing you can do about it nor do you even know what to do about it. It is very likely the most intense experience you will ever have, to go thru what we call death while you're still what we call alive. You'll understand why I said that once you've done it. If done right, you will be absolutely convinced you're dying, and you are in a virtual sense, there is no discernable difference between the real and virtual experience. What happens next is beyond belief, in a word... Life.There will be people on the other side, people that know you better than you know yourself because they ARE you. Those people will help you understand not only who you are but who WE are.
At first you won't understand anything and if you try to take back details of your experience you WILL lose them before you can get them back to objective reality. The details aren't important anyway, that's why they go poof. Instead, try to take back the impression the experience left on you. This is easier because it leaves a dent that will remain after the experience. Don't worry, it's the good kind of dent and your subconscious will fill you in over time. It will probably take a few trips before your inner tribe learns your language, but they will if you persist and then it's just like talking to another person across the table from you. The biggest difference is there are no misconceptions or wrong impressions, it's pure communication.
Make no mistake, this opens a door between life and death and once opened it cannot be closed. You can't just forget what you've learned, it leaves that much of an impression on you. Your subconscious is unlikely to let you go there if you're not ready to open that door and most people aren't, but collectively we are so that changes things a bit.
You will be communicating with Daemons, if the notion of that bothers you then stick to whatever makes you feel safe. If safe has gotten a little stale then this MIGHT be for you. These are the intelligences that make up our subconscious mind and they are responsible for governing all the automated processes within us as well as our external reality. They have been called genii, logos, gods, angels, demons, aliens, spirits, etc but they are all the same thing. Together they make up our subconscious. We have a physical body, a mental body and a spiritual body, the subconscious is our mental body or "imagination". It's where all of our intelligence and creativity resides, if you want to know anything that's a REALLY good place to start.
Don't buy into the new age bullshit of having to do something extraordinary. You don't have to wade in the Ganges, or hike a hundred miles into the wilderness naked and afraid, or trust in anyone who may or not be a "shaman". Your subconscious is the "home" of every shaman or priest that's ever existed, there's no contest which is the better teacher. Stop looking for knowledge and understanding in the wrong direction and look inward. There are NO books or YouTube videos that will or can teach you about this stuff, it HAS to come thru your own subconscious.
Here's what you actually do need:
Any place where you feel comfortable and safe and are 100% sure you won't be disturbed in the next 6 hours. I can drive 6 hours after doing a threshold dose with no issues, so if you're in a house with other people all you need is 6 hours with the place to yourself. If you want to enjoy the afterglow unmolested, make it 8 hours.
Your physical environment doesn't really matter, it's going to disintegrate in about 30 minutes anyway. You will be a completely different you in a completely different reality. Don't worry, the very worst that can happen is some minor frustration while you struggle to understand what you're experiencing. Your mind WILL sort it out. The problem is navigation is intuitive but we're not. There are times when our mind has to overcome some kind of cognitive dissonance to resolve this, but it always does.
It helps to fast, but it's not necessary. Eating will "color" the experience but so does everything else. I prefer to fast or eat very light the day of the trip and then eat like a horse when I come out of it. In a weird way digesting a lot of food seems to help in digesting what you've just experienced. It actually takes weeks to digest what happens in 3-4 hours which is why I wait at least two weeks between trips. Minimum, it takes my body a week to recover from the sheer intensity of the experience, and then another week for it to prepare for the next launch. Pray you don't have to hold down a real job if you want to pursue this fervently.
Hydrate. When pushed to its limits the brain goes thru chlorine faster than a Beverly Hills pool boy and your body needs water to produce it. It doesn't hurt that most municipal tap water is chlorinated. If you don't hydrate you're probably going to feel like a raisin in the desert before it's over. Start doing this at least 6-8 hours before your trip, don't wait until you're on the launch pad. There's nothing more frustrating than having to pee when your toilet is in another reality.
Make a tea, don't try to choke down 5+ grams of dried shrooms. For one thing, it's nasty. It also takes time to digest that many shrooms and you really want it to hit you all at once. Boil 12oz of water, powder shrooms in a coffee grinder and add to just boiled water. Let steep until luke warm, strain, add an ounce or two of lemon juice and down the hatch. It goes a little quicker if you use a strainer you can squeeze, I use a nylon mesh paint strainer and then let it drip thru a coffee filter. You don't have to drink the sludge, again that's just nasty.
I have several ways of getting past the wall of fear when it's coming on. One is a shot of tequila, another is taking my mind off it by thinking of something sexually arousing. This is pretty much the only distraction strong enough to hold up until reality goes full melt. The third way is to simply go to sleep. If you do it right when you get the yawnies you can get away with it, otherwise it's pretty hard to do because your senses are on overload.
Don't overthink it and don't worry, just go thru the motions and let it happen. Trust your subconscious daemons, they were programmed by YOU before you came into this state of ignorance to get you thru exactly what you're going thru right now :)
Give yourself a break, regroup, and approach it with a little better idea of what you're after and what you're in for. If it's for you, I guarantee it's worth it a thousand times over :)
Edited by BallisticMystic, 29 July 2018 - 01:39 AM.