It is so hot and humid here... It's just not my thing. Some days i think leaving is some pipe dream that i am just telling myself.
But we been places before and felt stuck... but once things started moving, they moved very fast.
I am grateful for my job, i am grateful i am employable in an area that gives a decent life... but i am sick of traditional healthcare. I am just burned out on complaints of illness and just throwing medicine at it then moving on fast and always being behind because the complaints are endless and chronically understaffed.
Feel like i am stepping way too far out on a limb in the training i am doing. Stepping off a cliff, into an unknown and wondering if i am just too old for that now. Going to keep going on with it cause i really just want to see it through because I believe in it. All i am risking is falling flat on my face and not able to pick myself up one more time.
I don't mind small towns but this is flat and no water around here..just wet heat. And the house is one thing gets fixed and two things break and i may end up selling it as is just to get away from it before it sucks the life out of our dreams.
Thank you for reading if you got this far as i said its just a vent..... probably due to having to make a very long and unexpected drive to south to Omaha today with the sun just swamping in everywhere non stop.
Edited by whirledpeas, 25 May 2018 - 07:36 PM.