Hi to all
Sorry for the late reply, I did read the thread but could not reply as my lady was home from work.
Many thanks for the advice with your own experiences and I really do appreciate it and it does not help me to keep bottling it up and now talking about it here has let me have a good night sleep,
the thing is and I think I should start from the beginning with as best I can with not reveling my identity.
When we me last year I was in a bad place after my 10 year marriage and she helped me over come a lot of issues as I was really lost and getting sick all the time from being in depression, so we started to help each other as she had her own set of problems that she came with that I can`t explain but know it`s bad, so after 3 months we moved in together due to reasons and things were looking good, fast forward a few months and she started to try control who I see and where I go, so I never thought much of it and then we had to move closer to her work to save on petrol and it`s not really where I wanted to move cause I am now away from friends and family and it`s a bit of a mission now to go see my child that I use to see weekly I now see 2 or 3 times a month and it`s hurting me a bit.
I also now don`t get to see my child as much as before cause the childs mother does not like the fact that I had moved on 6 months after we got divorced, my current lady likes my child and my child likes her too, but when I try make arrangements to see my child they always doing things and this is not easy to deal with but I am trying my best with that,
now the new thing with my lady is she thinks I am out roaming with friends and doing shady things but the best part is I have been at home doing my mycology work, I spend most of my time here on the forums, so her new thing is to try walk passed my pc and look what I am doing cause why am I not sitting watching netflix with her, but from where I sit I can do both so why not, I am not doing anything wrong but in her eyes I must be cause that had been done to her before and she compares me to that, then when I try sleep she will say lets talk and when I say but we have sat why only now she makes a big scene about it and that always leads to us arguing and I can`t take it anymore as now I feel lost and unproductive cause all I think is why this is happening and what I should do next and what has happened it`s crazy, it throws me off day`s and I can`t think straight , now for 2 day`s all is ok and it`s like nothing happened the other day but I can`t help but think that this is all escalating faster then I can control or even thought it could get,
now I know you must think I am crazy but I do still care about her and I want to try fix things but scared that this will never change but only get worse, but I also signed up for this so now do I just stick with it or do I cut my losses?
I have spoken to her while taking her to work today and asked if we could talk tomorrow as she will be off work and I think now will be the best time to bring up these points and maybe decide whats best for our future, as I feel now I would rather be alone and happy then to hold someone who treats me like this.
Many thanks for your time and I did not want to bring my problems to the board but I just need some outside advice from my myco-family on what should I do, I was thinking of taking a dmt trip and ask the mother molecule but I also don`t want a bad experience either so I decided to ask here and I really do appreciate everyones help, much love and respect brothers and sisters.
Edited by Da-1, 08 August 2018 - 06:26 AM.