I'm probably one of those needy narcissistic sorts. From the other side, I would also rather be alone.
Our personalities have been constructed out of early childhood and family, seemingly. My mother was covertly depressed most of my life and had been abused by her brother. My father was an emotionally isolated alcoholic. It produced an expectation for independence in me. In emotional lives, I expect others to take care of themselves and I know that I can take care of myself. Despite that, I will occasionally seem totally fucked, but I am really extremely careful. My sense of responsibility is often overwhelming.
That's the trap I live in. The same one that produces huge gaps in sympathy and empathy. I know that seeing me from the other side is something terrible and neglectful. But, from my side it looks like I'm trying my hardest. Relationships are insane. Add to this a girl that is extremely sensitive, and it becomes a recipe for years of well-intentioned abuse.
I'm quite happy that I like being alone. :)
Edited by Guy1298, 21 October 2018 - 12:02 PM.