I'd better try to finish this without too much meandering.
This is really strange. I have no connection to Haiti and I never knew this at the time but it is a common saying in Haiti to say "God is Good". Keeping that in mind....
So when I was nineteen I was sick to death of jerking off literally. My mind prompted me to do it. Television was full of prompts. Advertisement. I realised it was on purpose. Dumbing down society by playing on the inner program to procreate.
So there I was fighting the desire. Acquiring the chi. Not exactly. Containing it more so. That's where I was getting my power.
I had to quite my mind to break reality, the mould. Should I meditate and passively hope my inner chatter would cease? No funk that, I just told my thoughts to STFU everytime they piped up. The ego doesn't like being told to shut the funk up. It makes it feel smaller and smaller until it disappears altogether. Inner chatter likes to hear itself speak. Done. Inner peace.
So the ascetism and inner silence was doing it's thing. I replaced inner chatter with visualising chakra colors like traffic lights lighting up.
I smoked a lot of good weed and studied my Numerology book through the nights.
During one night of intense calculating of numerology twenty years into the future around dawn I had a break through that I was the Fool. This was my journey.
A psychic knowing overcame me and a rumbling erupted inside my core like an inner earthquake. It was almost painful. Like giving birth to something.
So intense. The morning sunlight turned Amber. My soul connected with a part of me that existed outside of this realm. It came from a dimension of pure energy. It couldn't come near before. My energy was not congruent. I was up to my knees in the shit of this world. Why would it want to leave its heavenly abode to join me?
But I cleared the muck from my pond and it saw that I was worthy of its presence. It was me as a higher octave. More of me. My superself. Not as in superman etc but a form of myself as pure energy.
You don't put fine wine in a dirty cup do you. Easy peasy japanesy.
Things calmed down that day.
I wasn't sure what exactly had happened but I slept well that night.
I met up with a friend the next day and we organised to score some acid. I told him I was going to show him something that evening.
We got hold of three acid tabs with Smiley faces on them and met up at my house later on. He told me later that before we had the acid there was a childlike energy rushing through the house shooting past him at great speed.
We took the acid and I had forgotten about what I intended to show him and tell him about. I actually didn't know what I was going to tell him.
The acid had started to work and we were relaxing in lounge chairs. He asked me casually " Soooooo what was it you wanted to show me"
I closed my eyes and explained " Well, it's like this... The words God and Good are one and the same... Except Good is infinite God because it has infinity in it. The double o. Its a cosmic lemniscate. The number eight on its side. Infinity"
Having honed my ability to visualise... I found myself looking at the letters making up the word GOOD in bright blue white light. As I said these things to my friend the two letter O's began to spin violently and became an intense explosion of bright white light that filled my inner mind.
Note: providing one has gathered the energy- clean lsd is capable of providing the springboard required to launch one into a state of being usually beyond human experience or one that would otherwise take many years of preparation and dedication.
To be continued...
Edited by Justintime, Today, 10:45 AM.