I started off the day with a good 6 hours of sleep, All i could get. i ate a nice breakfast and gave myself some time drinking water and lemon water (helps me digest) until about 11:00 when i popped 2.5 white tabs, So did my friend. I trusted my dealer because ive bought from them a lot (It's always who's making it though) so i didn't pay attention to taste. instead, i put it in my lip and swished my drink over it and did so until it was dissolved and swallowed it.
The come up was more than i expected. usually i see my brain now when i trip (Used to be letters) and it stays around the field of my vision. This time it grew to huge proportions and the weird energy feeling from it was slightly painful in the come up. I was extremely uncomfortable and me and my friend were so sweaty. i took off my shirt, I lied down and was having to squeeze onto my fiance for a while. It was about 45 minutes in. I was in pain and pleading for it to be gone.
The uncomfortable pain never stopped even a couple hours in. My friend was not feeling this feeling. he said he was just tripping like usual just uncomfortable. His turned into a headache by some point. We planned to go on a hike and i wasn't gonna let my pain ruin everyone else's good time. Since i was the only one feeling pain my fiance decided to take 2 tabs of it. I lost a lot of memory on the walk, i don't remember connecting with nature like i was trying to the whole time. i remember a rock ledge or two and that's it. I remember getting in the car to go home, And i felt like my friends "other dimensional self" was trying to get epiphanies out of me then steal it and that's why i couldn't remember all of my epiphanies. I saw my brain and his brain but they were like a different person it wasn't my friend. It was all a hallucination obviously but very strange. When we got home things got weirder, I was feeling like i'm so low on the chart of energy in motion and that's why i keep seeing negative things.
Using this mind state fuel, I was able to move myself up the chart and nature started looking beautiful and things were happy and not dark. this confirms a lot of things I've been told about suppressed feelings, It's all about mind state. I was able to help pull myself out of the dark feeling i always got with the plants on my porch. Soon enough though this all took a turn for the worse. I don't remember most of it but there were people there not tripping and ones that remember that have pieced the story together for me. I was very unresponsive, and sitting on the porch. My friend apparently took another hit of concentrate and fell to the floor and started freaking out. He flipped out table over and threw a bunch of stuff and doesn't remember any of it. they called two ambulances and i dont remember much but i remember seeing my car in my driveway turn into a cop car (around the time when they were telling me the cops were there) and i ran inside and threw a not so legal plant in the backyard. I snapped into it just for that moment and was lost again. At some point before the cops came around I started going through immense loops. nonstop throughout the next hour. it was almost like if you replayed a half a second over and over again. But changed scenes periodically. this was accompanied by some kind of fractal space i was zooming through at intense speeds. I felt like i was a brain and im part of some whole entire system or something, And i think i thought i had the answer to life (Obviously not).
I remember knowing i was never coming back to my body but that it was for a good cause,I was even okay with losing my fiance and all my friends just to be put towards this cause, it's very hard to remember but i garuntee would make even less sense if explained anyways.It was terrifying and got worse and worse. only 5 hours into the trip.
the real "fun" started when my ambulance arrived and it was about peak time. It was good that they came because i started tightening up and my body was hard to move by that time. They got me into the ambulance and ran fluids on the way to the hospital, And i think gave me something to get me to stop convulsing. This fractal space became almost galactical due to the colors, And i started sreaming something like nye-woo, Which isnt a word at all. I was convulsing heavily and they had to strap me down hard to get me to stay still. My whole life flashed before my eyes, I took this as my sign of death and was honestly trying to pray my way out of it lmao! I didnt feel like i was talking to god or anything, But i wierdly had a voice even when i wasnt really speaking. Once i got to the hospital i was just saying things about the bible and that nye-woo word, I would only respond with nye-woo for the next hour. I had no language skills or balance during this time. I was in immense pain once whatever they gave me wore off. I saw my brain filling the whole hospital room, And it hurt the whole time. They wouldn't give me any pain pills because i "Overdosed". It took me a while to build my memory back up and start recognizing my mom and aunt. I did not stop tripping all night, And pain pills didn't work when i got home. My head felt like it was vibrating. i saw my brain all night and had to find a way to sleep with it. I dont really believe i actually overdosed, But i'll trust the doctors on this one.
Moral of the story, use testers or know where its coming from. Happy tripping out there!