
Last trip was a bad experience.. but don't want to give it up!
#1
Posted 03 July 2019 - 07:16 AM
I was wondering if you guys have any tips for me for when I choose to trip again which will be soon. Should I have a really small dose to just dip my feet in and get used to the feeling again? I have 15mg diazepam on hand too, should I take a couple mg before to keep me calm ? Should I mediate into the trip?
Much appreciated
#2
Posted 03 July 2019 - 07:17 AM
#3
Posted 04 July 2019 - 08:49 PM
You'll have to figure out what works for you, but I benefitted from lower doses and loving-kindness meditation for sometime. This was back when a few trips made it so I didn't sleep in the dark. I was just scared. The fear seemed all-around. My dreams were terrifying sometimes. Good lessons though.
What about those 4 hours made it the worst experience of your life?
#4
Posted 05 July 2019 - 11:45 AM
You'll have to figure out what works for you, but I benefitted from lower doses and loving-kindness meditation for sometime. This was back when a few trips made it so I didn't sleep in the dark. I was just scared. The fear seemed all-around. My dreams were terrifying sometimes. Good lessons though.
What about those 4 hours made it the worst experience of your life?
Yeah I think starting lower is what I am going to do :) well I didn't help I watched a film about possessions the night before so felt like my soul was open and the devil was gonna posses me, I was also seeing that chucky doll on the shadows and in my phone screen which was horrifying since I had a lot of trouble with chucky when I was a kid ( watched it at a young age not by choice) just felt completely out of control, people say you learn from bad experiences and there is no such thing as a bad trip but for me.. I gained nothing !
#5
Posted 06 July 2019 - 04:41 PM
I remember once on a high dose I realized that I had opened the puzzle box from Hellraiser. While I didn't see the cenobites I was convinced that I was open to that and more. It was a bit tough! Heh.
For me, I think the fear was based in a lack of trust. I see life and death, various amounts of pain and dysfunction in the world. Apparently knowing that, I couldn't approach the void without first conjuring hell. How could I bear it? Through a long period, I realized that no matter whether I see or don't see hell, I am already at the mercy of an inexplicable reality. Knowing that, there is no other option but to know that all is well. So, I started tripping differently, with genuine prayer and all of that.
It's all interesting. Best of luck with your next trips, if you trip again, and all that comes. :).