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#1 buteo

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Posted 01 September 2019 - 08:22 PM

here i am again. I wanted to open a general discussion to see how everyone is doing. Lets get a bigger discussion going on...tell me your current projects. Get me caught up on ya...even if i dont know ya...too much to read and im stretched over many places and everyone is important to me. Make my life a little easier and you get to have someone listen. And ill actually pay attention this time....but dont leave me hanging and i promise i wont leave you hanging! aaaaaaaaannnnddd GO!


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Posted 01 September 2019 - 08:54 PM

Well I started with BRF jars (Rusty Whyte and Golden Teacher)which was kind of a chore since I had to grind my own. Those are doing nicely (though somewhat slowly). Went ahead and jumped into WBS which was not as laborious nor as expensive and it spawned quicker too. While those were busy spawning I worked on some no pour agar dishes and I currently have some nice white tomentose mycelium. Spawned my WBS jars to bulk and my GT tub is covered in hyphal knots. Right now I have some more WBS cleaned and soaking in coffee water. Gonna load into jars and PC it tomorrow. All this while taking care of my GF and her daughter and keeping a job. I may not be Superman but I'm damn close. Lol.
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Posted 02 September 2019 - 01:08 AM

Working on an exercise room. I just laid a brown paper floor, with two coats of stain. Varnish is next. Same old grow stuff going on. How are you?


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 01:32 AM

I been damn near out of my mind. Trying hard to get through it all. Tried to have a much needed healing trip this weekend that was one big huge failure on all parts. Dunno wtf actually happened, but joy was not a part of it. Been trying to focus on music for a while and had some good times in that regard. Mental state is way off the norm and not quite right. Trying hard to get back on top and surf it like I should, but life has been damn tilted towards the negatives. Hope you and yours are doing well and I hope that next week all this will have turned around. Intent is everything, so keep on top of that my friend...I hope all is well somewhere in the world... :) I could use some healing and positive energy right now for anyone who pushes that good stuff around. 


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 02:04 AM

I been damn near out of my mind. Trying hard to get through it all. Tried to have a much needed healing trip this weekend that was one big huge failure on all parts. Dunno wtf actually happened, but joy was not a part of it. Been trying to focus on music for a while and had some good times in that regard. Mental state is way off the norm and not quite right. Trying hard to get back on top and surf it like I should, but life has been damn tilted towards the negatives. Hope you and yours are doing well and I hope that next week all this will have turned around. Intent is everything, so keep on top of that my friend...I hope all is well somewhere in the world... :) I could use some healing and positive energy right now for anyone who pushes that good stuff around.

Hope everything gets better for you man.
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#6 RainbowCatepillar

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 03:37 AM

I am currently going through one of the most challenging times in my life..

I understand that there will be more "most challenging times in my life" but I

feel that I am not yet fully equipped to handle adversity in a healthy way. I have

been getting my ass absolutely kicked by life. I am trying my best to see that life is

beautiful regardless of the circumstantial, but it is extremely difficult when I have issues 

in my life that are pressing and stressful. My struggle to find jobs, my school workload, the 

pathologies of my family and friends affecting my psyche, and my general anxiety and OCD issues 

are culminating in an absolutely difficult life experience. I am not blaming others for my life circumstances, 

I just find it difficult to not be affected by these many factors. I am almost afraid to trip right now because I don't want

to have my sadness writ large in a psychedelic experience. However, I will continue to push good vibes out to the world

because I love you guys. I love people. I love life. I just hope that my darkness does not consume me because thoughts of 

checking out are strong right now. Anyways, I hope everyone else is doing well and able to overcome the difficulties in life gracefully..

I send you all love and well wishes during my Metta meditations. :D


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#7 crazy1

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 08:17 AM

First off Peace and Love with great vibes to all who are going through a challenge in life right now. You will get through this and be better for it.

 

Life here is busy, but going well. Our children are growing up, are healthy and blessed. Second from youngest just started school this year, dang they get big quickly. I'm blessed as I can do a lot with them and have a schedule I control, for the most part lol

 

Growing again and will get a thread going again someday. My online time is an hour or less a day, so I get to check in on my great friends and family. I've found my life to be becoming much more simple lately.

 

Great to see ya back round Buteo :)


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 10:37 AM

Took my son out duck hunting this morning, enjoying that fall is on its way. Hunting, fishing, camping, scary movies love this time of year. Got a few small mono tubs going. Learning a lot now that I have joined this great online community!
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Posted 02 September 2019 - 11:07 AM

Chopping wood and carrying water.  Lost a few days of summer workings because I got a sliver of half rotten plywood from my firewood cart's floor under my left thumbnail and got a painful throbbing infection.  It was the proverbial sore thumb.  Had to drive to Portland VA emergency room and they handed me off to the hand specialist plastic surgeons.  That put me off my exercise and then my back went out a few times.  Also affecting my back going out was forgetting to drink enough water.  What's funny was I forgot to drink while I put in a long day working on my neighbors' water system when it went out the first time, starting repeated relapses as I just would not give it enough time off. 

 

So, the body is finally back on track.  I should have the wood done today.  Then I am going to help my neighbor set up a ten by twenty foot greenhouse she was given by a local small farmer who retired.  That farmer was my shiitake buyer, and his retirement, and the age of my logs, sort of retired me too from the shiitake biz.  I have had hardly a mushroom on my logs all summer, but I haven't been even trying. 

 

Still happy for no reason. 


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 03:53 PM

Rainbowcaterpillar, here's a big hug for you. Sending positive energy your way, and for anyone else that needs it right now too. The worst of my problems amount to no more than a bad case of self pity, and it is easy to lose sight of that simple fact. I hope all gets better for you. 


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#11 RainbowCatepillar

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 04:33 PM

@Coopdog, You're right about that! My problems are probably just a case of self pity.
I'm still alive and have the opportunity to bask in the wonders of existence. How can I be

blinded to this by the arising and passing away of temporal phenomena? You reminded me to 

remain aware that my bad feelings are a consequence of a desire to control my circumstances, which,

although very human, is impossible to do. Just gotta do my best and ride the waves, eh? There's too many

factors outside my control. It's better to just work smart, allow existence to do its thing and let go. Sending you love

and light as well Coopdog! We'll get through the challenges! In fact, the mere awareness of the challenges proves we

already are getting through them since we're still alive! Thank you for your well-wishes!  :hug:


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 05:32 PM

Nothing much, just standing on the razor's edge of the most intense and complicated tipping point of my entire relatively-short but awesomely-weird time on this planet.

 

Seriously; when you're just standing there you're really not doing much even when you happen to be standing a millimeter away from the crossroad of more than you can handle and everything you've ever thought you wanted.

 

And I'm only just standing here with my thumb up my ass because my mechanic couldn't get the part he needed very easily so I've been actually sitting here in my house for the past week unable to go anywhere or do much of anything (which explains my recent daily visits and verbose posts).

 

I thought I'd be on the road weeks ago, and luckily stocked up at the store before dropping my vehicle off at the shop but I'm literally almost out of food, have no clean clothes or bath towels left since I've been living out of an overnight bag since February and there's no washing machine where I'm staying, had my debit card hacked, then my truck stolen and destroyed a few months back (stretching the limits of my ability to practice non-attachment), last week my lawnmower fell apart last time I went to start it, my roof has three tarps on it from the leaks so starting next week (after I am mobile again) I'll be putting a new roof on it (with the help of some friends; I don't like roofing in Summer but it's better than getting rained on in the house), then just last Friday my credit card was hacked which is causing a cascade of inconvenience as things are updated so they're not cancelled, including payment for the storage unit where 99% of what's left of what I own is stashed (and that's three states away from where I am now), and all this began after I bailed from an infuriating bait-and-switch fuck-over that cost me ~75% of everything I owned and wasted nearly two years of my life (in the State where all my shit's still at). And those are just the highlights." I didn't even bring up the near-death experience with the falling tree in the storm, among other relative trivialities.

 

Well damn, I'm starting to think I should cut all this and paste it into the Random Venting Thread, lol.

 

It's been a VERY long week, basically.

 

ONE MORE DAY 'til I can get moving again. Then it's game on, motherfuckers!


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#13 RainbowCatepillar

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 05:48 PM

Goddamn, TVCasualty, that is definitely a lot of shit happening back-to-back. 
I'm sorry it's been so hectic for you! Wishing you well! 
Wish I had the money to overnight you a care package.. :/
 

Keep us posted on when your car gets fixed and you hit the road!

I know things will straighten out.. All in due time..


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 05:52 PM

Goddamn, TVCasualty, that is definitely a lot of shit happening back-to-back. 
I'm sorry it's been so hectic for you! Wishing you well! 
Wish I had the money to overnight you a care package.. :/
 

Keep us posted on when your car gets fixed and you hit the road!

I know things will straighten out.. All in due time..

 

I'm fine, just temporarily chained to the ground and that ends tomorrow.

 

But damn, I'm ready to chew through cinder blocks if it'll get things moving at this point.

 

Edit: And the reason why I'm sitting in my house and have to put a roof on it but none of my stuff is here is because I rented my house out when I left, so technically I'm a guest in the house I own. It's kind of surreal to be a homeless guy squatting in the house he owns, lol.


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#15 RainbowCatepillar

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 06:03 PM

 

Goddamn, TVCasualty, that is definitely a lot of shit happening back-to-back. 
I'm sorry it's been so hectic for you! Wishing you well! 
Wish I had the money to overnight you a care package.. :/
 

Keep us posted on when your car gets fixed and you hit the road!

I know things will straighten out.. All in due time..

 

I'm fine, just temporarily chained to the ground and that ends tomorrow.

 

But damn, I'm ready to chew through cinder blocks if it'll get things moving at this point.

 

Edit: And the reason why I'm sitting in my house and have to put a roof on it but none of my stuff is here is because I rented my house out when I left, so technically I'm a guest in the house I own. It's kind of surreal to be a homeless guy squatting in the house he owns, lol.

 

Oh man that sounds pretty trippy!
Did you rent the house out so you can travel? Seems like you do a lot of moving around.



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Posted 02 September 2019 - 06:10 PM

I rented it out because I thought I'd moved for good, and was hoping the guy who is renting it would buy it. He's a longtime friend of mine who knew that this might happen which is why it's not insanely awkward for me to be here. But he can't get conventional financing thanks to some past tax issues so I'll probably also have to find a new tenant soon.

 

Once I secure a new gig I'm going to focus on getting rid of it. Or maybe not. It's going to be one of those questions I'll have to go out to the woods and eat 6 grams to get an answer for.



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Posted 02 September 2019 - 06:26 PM

It's wonderful that the universe is paying so much attention to you, Teev.   I remember when the bait was fresh for you and you knew you had it made, here in the fizz.   Hopefully, by remaining in the witnessing, you will have much the same thing happen as when my life plan's rug got snatched from under my ass, five years ago in October.   When I told my VA doc that bad things were good, she probably was ready to sign the commitment papers.  So, I saw that I had to lay low.  Now she looks forward to the annual visit from the happy guy.    Now, I believe that Jesus turned shit to Shinola, and many other miracles as well.


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#18 RainbowCatepillar

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 06:32 PM

Alder, your epithet should be "Alder, the Wise". i enjoy reading your posts! Always gives me this feeling of calm..

 

@Tv, I have a good feeling things will work out for you. Let us know how that 6 gram trip goes! 


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 06:49 PM

My idea of having it made was and still is the opportunity to get to work. I'm now at the point where I'm just going to take care of that myself. I'm also at the point where I can. When I took the bogus deal I was not in such a position.

 

As such, it was particularly baffling why things went the way they did since the people involved on the money end went to an awful lot of trouble and spent a lot of money to get me up where they're at only for me to end up feeding a couple of dozen chickens and a couple of psychotic peacocks (plus some really cool ducks) and doing little things like maintenance and installing tankless water heaters and basically being an indentured contractor for them (the house was their weekend place and was 10,000 sq. ft. with an indoor pool I never set foot in and 50 acre lake outside all located WAY out in the sticks, as in a 40 minute drive to any store besides the gas station that was only 11 miles away). There was supposed to be (and promises of) infrastructure to be built to accommodate my needs that never was.

 

They are basically fresh-to-the-country city slickers who have no idea what they're doing but were very good at making it seem like they did. And the person who introduced us is solid, and trustworthy, and one of the smartest and most subversive people I've ever met (he wrote a bit of the code that the Internet functions with, among other things). So it's a bummer on several levels, and as educational as it's been and continues to be, it was still a case of unambiguous fuckery, and I'm not quite all the way to the point where I can let that kind of shit roll off my back very easily. But it rolls off eventually. Baby steps...

 

The mental shifts that this strange time has induced have been acutely felt as they were unfolding. I'm definitely not the same person I was 6 months ago, and that person was not the same person that he was a year before that. I can even identify some of my thought patterns that changed, and how, and I prefer the new ones.

 

So much transformation, and all the time in the world to do it. But I still need my goddamned car back!


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Posted 02 September 2019 - 07:06 PM

Peoples in varying degrees of hell and heaven! 

 

Today I wasn't well, but tonight I'm fine. I have too little investment in life at this point, though I go with the flow of it and I'm invested through that. Who am I? I remember about 5 months ago in a state of anxiety accepting a job opportunity. I lived through the worst of it and I'm now somewhere else. I tell myself I'll help my dad, but I suspect I can't help much. If I don't want to be anywhere else, I'm happy here. Nobody could have planned it. But, my hip aches. 


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