When I first discovered cannabis I loved it... it made me happy and giggly, it calmed me down and it was a bit trippy at times. I could always count on Cannabis to relax me and elevate my mood no matter what kind of mindset I was in.
After I delved deep enough into psychedelics I found Cannabis was becoming hit or miss for me in the sense that it wouldn’t necessarily calm me down or even seem to let me enjoy it... sometimes it would send me on an incredibly powerful downward spiral of anxiety and fear. I started to use it less and less frequently because of this panic response I was having (and still occasionally have).
Cannabis became much less of a party/relaxing drug and it felt much more psychedelic to me in and of itself. It became difficult to use it too frequently for fear of having a “bad trip” so to speak and I found myself being able to use traditional psychedelics like psilocybin or LSD much more easily than Cannabis. I have definitely taken breaks from smoking weed (and using psychedelics) in the past but it has always remained close to my heart.
I think the main thing I noticed was that whenever I smoked weed after I had some reasonably heavy psychedelics trips under my belt it was like I was getting a refresher of a lesson I had already learned from something like Psilocybin or LSD each time. A reminder about lessons learned from past trips that I hadn’t yet intigrated, but from a teacher that seemed even more strict than traditional psychedelics if that makes sense. It was as if the Cannabis was saying “you know all this shit about how to better yourself and you haven’t used it. Stop being a lazy idiot and put some of it to use” and it was not very gentle about showing me my flaws.
A few years ago I started using Cannabis with higher amounts of CBD and I’ve really found this to be a great way for me to get back into the groove with the herb without sending me into a panic attack. I now find I can use strains higher in THC without going into a panic spiral and I’m really appreciating the effects now that I have a bit better of an understanding of how my relationship with Cannabis should look:
If I just want to relieve stress I’ll opt for something lighter in THC and higher in CBD. If I want to get nice and ripped I need to understand that for whatever reason Cannabis has become much more psychedelic for me and I need to treat it as such...
Since I’ve come to this realization I am able to smoke a good amount of strong, high THC bud and not find myself spiraling into panic. I can get a bit panicky but when I do I find there is usually something I should be listening to that I’m not... there’s a message I’m meant to get and I need to pay attention. Once I get the message it’s all smooth sailing and I feel like I’m being rewarded for doing some self reflecting. I get really deep introspection from Cannabis now (not that I haven’t before but it feels different now) and it’s become an incredible tool for personal insight and growth. I have a relationship that’s so much deeper with it now then when I first started using it.
Like I said before it seems like Cannabis is helping me integrate lessons from past psychedelic experiences as well as helping me learn new ones. It’s not that it’s become much more visual for me or anything (tho I can get visuals from THC at high enough doses) but after using psychedelics I feel like the headspace has changed. And I like it a lot!
Has anyone else experienced this? It’s almost like the high I get from Cannabis has “matured” now and I think that is likely do, in big part, to psychedelics. I’m sure me maturing as a person plays a big role also but that is something I also have to give a lot of credit to psychedelics for anyway. What do you guys think?
Looking forward to hearing your opinions and experiences!
Edited by ethnobotanist420, 28 November 2019 - 02:24 AM.