I had been planning this trip for several weeks with the intention of an evening beginning as near the Full Moon as possible, warm fire outside. I had thought that I would begin inside to control environmental noise for the sake of meditation for the first 2 hours or so, then head outside since it would then be dark and sit by the fire.
Mother Nature had other plans as it began raining the day before & is still cloudy/gloomy today (the day after). Just so happen to be Friday the 13th!
I had a Friend over to be my sitter. I began with loading 3+g of Acadian Coast onto the digital scale. It does not give me .0 increments so once it hit 3g I added a touch more to get somewhere near 3.5g.
I placed 1C filtered water in a pan and brought it to a boil for around 10 minutes. I then added a touch more water to compensate for evaporation. I placed the mushrooms into a coffee grinder and converted them to mostly powder with some small bits. After the 10 minutes of boiling the water (supposedly reduces oxygen levels in the water ) I added the powdered mushrooms. I covered the pan and stirred every 10 minutes or so. I occasionally added a touch of water to try and maintain near a Cup. I steeped this for 60-70 minutes. I strained the liquid into a measuring bowl to see how close it was to 1 Cup. It turned out to be about 1/2C. I added all of the mushroom particles back to the pan that I could and added 1/2C of water back in and steeped for another 10min. Poured this through a strainer and had my full 1Cup. I then squeezed about 1/2 - 1 tsp of Lime juice in. I chose to add a small amount of lime in just to kind of touch on the lemon/lime tek. Probably didn't matter one bit though.
I began sipping on the tea at about 5:30pm. Consumed all in maybe 15-20 minutes. I then sat in the floor on a mat and talked a bit with my friend. I could slowly begin to feel a "heaviness" around my eyes. I decided to lay back and begin my version of mindfulness/meditation. Things began without a doubt about 30 minutes or so in. Shortly after I decided to put on East Forest "Music for Mushrooms" and continued lying still. Some of the sounds were really nice like the sounds of the night insects in the music. Some of the voice sounds and instruments seemed to bring my focus outside of me though.
As I lay, the bodily sensation I felt most was like something sort of heavy inside me. Things felt very similar to meditation with Cannabis. I had some slight visuals which did not seem any different from my experience in a float tank using Cannabis. I would occasionally open my eyes to notice anything visual. I could see slight geometric patterns that were pink"ish" in color like a fabric in the airspace. I experienced a slight jerking motion of my arms at one point, similar to when you begin to drift to sleep. I had a brief moment of thoughts and visions of a family member that brought about some warm fuzzies and smiles. Between 1 hour/1 &1/2 hours I began having the sensation to urinate. I laid there and just focused into the sensation. I procrastinated to get up and go relieve myself for the concern of disrupting the experience and possibly peeing out any of the actives LOL. I eventually had to get up and go.
I noticed that when I stood my field of vision seemed to "sink" in the middle. Sort of felt like my body was folding into itself toward my front. Only the slightest bit of nausea and "drunkish" on my feet. When I was standing, the physical sensations were that of Alcohol and that of Cannabis. Not the same, but was the only territory of experience that I could equate to what this felt like. Unlike my experience with Cannabis, I was in no way feeling like anything physically active. I LOVE Cannabis and my version of Yoga, or running, walking, lifting weights etc.
I went outside in the dark of night and relieved myself (utilized the woodline for you ex grunts LOL)
I did not feel to drawn to be outside with the condition of weather so I went back inside.
I ended up transitioning from sitting to lying and conversing some with my Friend. The peak of experience lasted about 2 hours. I had a few times of heavy laughter over something that would be said.
About 2 1/2 hrs in I got up and went to the stove to add some water to the mushroom leavings to make more tea. Had a few laughs and was not the easiest to focus on things. Standing seemed to lessen the head experience. The leftovers did add a bit more to the experience but not much. I again made one more tea with the leavings at about 4 hrs in. It also may have added a bit more to the experience. At approximately the 4 hour mark, I laid on my mat for a little over an hour and had some strong emotional feelings & thoughts about my Daughter. This was very similar to my experiences in the float tank or just meditation in general. I would catch myself in the thought patterns and return back to a "centered" focus. I would notice some part of my body contracted as it would release. I have come to notice in these situations how my body holds tension around thoughts. I only notice this in meditation and very rarely in everyday life moving.
At around 11:15pm I sat up and decided to get ready for bed as I was beginning to feel really sleepy.
All in all I did not experience anything outside of "normal reality". I did seem to hear some sort of sound a few times to my left when lying, but could very well have been related to the "Music for Mushrooms". Some slight color and visuals. I did not experience any real sense of reality distortion, spiritual awakening, Oneness or any type of "opening" that I was thinking may occur.
A "heavy" physical sensation stood out the most. I did not experience anything unpleasant. I would have liked to have had a Spiritual opening/experience & I am accepting of not also.
I will go again soon and may try the RedBoyX strain to see how that goes.
I think for this particular journey I could have handled 4-5g and that it may have helped to open some doors. I assume that 3g of synthesized psilocybin in a clinical setting is not the same as 3g of dried cubes, but I had to start somewhere. Perhaps going higher without a sitter is not ideal though...
I plan to not use any music next time and try to go for more stillness and meditative state. I may need to brave this thing on my own as having a sitter sometimes pulled me out of focus with their movements and sounds although minimal.
Today I woke with a headache that came on around 2:30am. It could be due to possible dehydration as I did spend 20+ minutes in a sauna the morning of my journey. Could possibly be due to the fungus also.... who knows. All in all though I feel calmer, maybe slower, with less anxiety today.
Thanks for reading.