Well, I harvested my first flush last night. I'm planning to post the coming experiences here as time goes on. This is my fourth period of mushroom-use. There's been a lot of change this year: a couples years advent and growth of non-duality in my way of seeing, a new job and opportunities, loss of friends, etc.
Right now, I feel very well. And I am stable in that. I meditate daily, but with no expectation. I realized that for me, it's just a performance to play my part a little better. I'm playing a part. This is essentially a dream. I recently decided to be vegetarian which felt like the right choice. And I'm gradually coming to peace with my habits of action and mind that present themselves most forcefully as "mine" and "wrong."
"I am not the doer" is hard to grasp. But, how could it not be the case? Only if "I" is left un-investigated.
Anyway, I'm betting I'm only going to micro-dose. But, in case I up the dose, I'll post here. There's some good nature out here... I'll figure it out. Things will be a little smarter this time around. My hunger for escape has been cut off. I'm happy to reconnect with the mushroom, its ways of deeper feeling and insight, its otherworldly beings, its wisdom, and its gods.
Edited by Guy1298, 12 January 2020 - 03:46 PM.