Damn, that really sucks. Sorry to hear it.
That problem is likely to get a lot worse since most people seem to have a lot of trouble being alone with their own thoughts, even if there are a bunch of techno-distractions all around them. Or maybe it's because of all those distractions.
It helps a lot when trying to endure this kind of thing if one has undergone a traditional Vision Quest, which is 4 days and 4 nights sitting alone in some bushes with a few gallons of water (I brought a blanket, too).
It pushed my mind to what it thought were its limits around the third day but holding on until the borderline insanity passes brings unparalleled clarity and calmness and a different perception of time. It is not advisable to undergo a full four-day quest for one's first time as it is a far more intense experience than anyone expects and if unprepared one is likely to bail early and go temporarily nuts without getting any insights from it.
The first "Oh shit, what have I gotten myself into THIS time?" thought often happens around the end of the first 15 minutes when it occurs to you that you're already bored silly and only have 95 hours and 45 minutes left to go.
I was taught that doing at least one a year is the way to go for rapid spiritual growth (or 4X a year for supercharged growth), but I've only done one in the past 20 (I'm a bit of a slacker tracker) but I still learn things from it to this day and the benefits I gained did not dissipate over time. I can remain very quiet and still while out-waiting nearly anyone, lol. Which can be a huge advantage when you don't want to be seen and people are looking for you, or are under interrogation since it also taught me that I can just sit there staring into space for days (literally) without saying a word (I type a hell of a lot more than I talk). By the end of the second day, birds were landing on my head and plucking hairs out for their nests, lol. It was a real trip.
Anyway, the entire human race now appears to be undergoing a forced collective Vision Quest by being stuck at home instead of sitting in some bushes. And we had no chance to mentally prepare for it, so I expect the following weeks and months to be profoundly transformative for nearly everyone. Many will find great clarity and gain confidence in themselves as their awareness expands and their minds strengthen to meet the challenge while many others will be shattered to pieces.
Unlike a traditional Quest, we're not undergoing this collective one alone so looking out for each other will be necessary to help as many of us as possible manifest a positive transformation instead of ending up shattered from isolation and loneliness.
Sitting alone without Intent leads to loneliness and crippling depression but sitting alone with Intent (i.e. a Vision Quest) is an exercise undertaken in solitude and never feels lonely. Quite the opposite, ironically.
I don't think it's an exaggeration to say that we are currently experiencing the most profound and significant crossroad/turning point/moment of truth for the human race since the development of agriculture. At this moment things could still go either way, and it's a once-in-a-10,000 year chance that we'd best not fuck up.
I mean, we all knew at some level that the world we lived in a couple of months ago was completely unsustainable and doomed therefore it had to fail at some point, and better that it happen when the power is still on, the water is still flowing through the pipes, and food is still being distributed vs. losing ALL the basics we take (or took) for granted all at once, as in a total grid collapse.
I don't know what most people were expecting after having collectively acted like spoiled, entitled children for centuries (if not millennia). That it would go on forever?
Science was like mom saying: "What do you think you're doing? You stop that right now!"
We didn't care: "Whatever. You're not the boss of me!"
Science: "You just wait 'til your father gets home!"
Us again: "Okay, whatever."
Inevitable disaster: "Hey honey, I'm home!"
Us: "Uhh... I didn't mean it! I promise won't do it again! Give me one more chance!"
Disaster: "Bullshit. You're grounded until further notice!"
to be continued...
In other news I'm hoping that everyone who goes to Mexico or Canada on a regular basis to get life-saving medication (such as insulin) they can't afford in the US will still be able to either go get it or get it here affordably. That includes a hell of a lot of people.