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My Ongoing Personal Psychedelic Experiences...


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#41 Guy1298

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Posted 10 January 2022 - 09:03 PM

Well, I've got my Ayahuasca brew. I'll be testing it out this weekend, if all goes to plan. :)

 

May I find the healing I need! 


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Posted 15 January 2022 - 10:55 AM

Took it for a test run last night. Just a little bit to get a sense of the potency of the brew.

 

I'll drink more next time. It eased my feelings of anxiousness, regret, and shame. I only took enough to get mild transient visuals and enough to make my dreams extremely vivid. No purge. 

 

Ayahuasca is my kind of medicine. I'm going to stick with this for awhile. 


Edited by Guy1298, 15 January 2022 - 11:00 AM.

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Posted 21 January 2022 - 11:06 PM

So, the effects of ayahuasca have been exactly what I needed. I feel like this entire week was transformed and healed and taken care of by ayahuasca. 

 

I am noticing subtle feelings of things returning to normal again this Friday. This is the first day that I felt slightly afraid of losing what had come upon me this week. So... yep. I'll be doing aya on a regular basis from here on out. There is not one other thing that I've come across that has had such a significant positive effect on my self, my life, and my experience of the world. I know this from only this week, but I'm also remembering what effect my first aya ceremonies had on me. 

Ayahuasca is my path to real mental and spiritual health. 

 

Of course, I could be getting ahead of myself. :). But, that's the gist of it. I'm going to begin engaging in mini-personal ceremonies weekly, bi-weekly, or monthly to see where it takes me.


Edited by Guy1298, 21 January 2022 - 11:11 PM.


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Posted 22 January 2022 - 12:46 AM

i just read this book .

The Ayahuasca Test Pilots Handbook
The Essential Guide to Ayahuasca Journeying
Author: 

Chris Kilham

lots  good  info  about  the sean in peru , but if your drinking THE MEDICIN  at home lots great info in last few chapters how to nnavigate the journy how to interact with   spirts and gain the healing you seek  .good advice .

 

https://cdn.shopify....pg?v=1631715528The-Ayahuasca-Test-Pilots-Handbook-by-Ch


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Posted 22 January 2022 - 08:23 AM

Thanks, I'll take look at that book sometime



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Posted 22 January 2022 - 03:16 PM

i bought a slightly used copy with free shipping from Amazon . there is a large print fersion but of course it coasts more



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Posted 03 August 2022 - 09:05 PM

Latest thing I started doing is micro-dosing Ayahuasca. I take 1ml on the same schedule I would a mushroom microdose. I'll let you guys know how it goes. Only done it a few times now. 

 

1ml of course doesn't tell you anything, but it feels like a microdose with the brew I'm using. 


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Posted 03 August 2022 - 09:09 PM

I think it's coming time to head out to my usual hiking spot and have a fine mushroom trip again. I haven't tripped at the same spot since I slipped and cut my toe open. But, I think I'll head out there again. It's been quite awhile and the mushroom trips I had indoors were ugly experiences (very very dark, or utterly confusing and nihilistic). 



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Posted 21 August 2022 - 01:02 PM

Overall, the Ayahuasca microdose is good. It's hard to put down how it's different from the mushroom microdose. I feel less high. But the subtle influences are there, I feel more connected and find myself positively different socially. But, generally speaking, I'm not doing very well this last week or two. That will change. 

 

I think I'll plan to take a low mushroom dose this next weekend. At the usual hiking spot. It'll be interesting to revisit the area where I slipped and cut my toe. Thinking back, so wild. The toe was cut open down to the bone, but I mostly didn't feel any pain. It was the peak, so I knew I had to come down before I called the ambulance. I knew that'd be a couple hours at least. Knowing that made it so that my toe was mostly painless. And there I was feeling like I was being punished by the gods. Haha. 

For me, it was a good lesson. The toe is mostly functional today. I got away with a minor scratch for my recklessness (was I really that reckless?). But, it's numb a bit, which reminds me of the event. It was stupid. But, yeah, one day, I'll be riding my bike in the street and a car might crash into me. The body's fragile and shit happens. 


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Posted 23 August 2022 - 01:27 PM

Tried 2ml this last Sunday. What a difference. 

 

It's been a tougher last couple days. Went for a walk yesterday and thought a lot about things. For moments, I was at the tip of a high, thinking to myself that my father (in death) must bask in bliss. It was a comforting thought, thinking that he was truly at peace. But, much of the walk was characterized by a physical discomfort mirroring various disappointments I have with the world and yearning for deeper spiritual insight, continually informed by the fact that I have conned myself. 

 

I've got a feeling 2ml is a bit too much for a microdose. I might reserve it for the weekend or try it again up until it feels unmanageable for the day-to-day. Will see. 


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Posted 27 August 2022 - 11:14 AM

Anyway, 2ml is definitely too much for the day-to-day. 



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Posted 27 August 2022 - 03:19 PM

i need to read back  to see what  YOUR Aya  brew You make Guy1298

 

i was thinking of  using  2 to 5 grams of  MHRB boiling it in a slightly acidic water then adding some Harmela HCL extracted from Syrian rue   i bought from ebay ..or perhaps  convert  some harmela  to THH  ? 

i'm just  speculating in my head  ..right now .

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Any comments / thoughts / suggestions / advice  from any readers of this thread .

THANKS

 

BEZ



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Posted 24 September 2022 - 10:36 PM

I'm not much help here. I decided not to brew it myself (might do it in the future). Basically, just emailed a shaman I drank with in Peru and asked if he could send me some of his brew. 



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Posted 24 September 2022 - 10:39 PM

I finally did get out for that mushroom trip, back to where I sliced my toe. 

I'll say this, I am never going to stop using mushrooms again. I benefit so much from using it therapeutically in smallish doses on these little hikes. I was really headed downhill lately, not too bad, but I noticed. This trip set me straight, that much I'm sure of. 

 

But, I'm done using it outside of nature. Its vibes are just dark as hell when I trip in home. Sitting on a slab of rock on a peninsula near a river, the sun beats down, then the wind blows, alternating and guiding me through my introspection, reminding me again of what I've forgotten, clearing up the bullshit. 


Edited by Guy1298, 24 September 2022 - 10:42 PM.

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