I haven't read replies past Flashing Roosters first one. There is way too much in your post to break down statement by statement, so I will give you a general answer for now. The first thing I will say is that there is NO WAY possible to explain your realizations or your revelations to anyone else, even people far down the path. Those are for you alone, and like the person who finds religion, or the person having their first real spiritual experience, it is for you and you alone. There is no way in hell to explain it to anyone, even though you are a very well written and concise speaker. Respect for that.
The world now is set up for short attention span theater. The people creating the narrative have not encouraged deep thinking nor rationalization for many years, and very few people will read much of anything more than a couple of paragraphs long, because they have been conditioned not to, especially since digital communication and social media came about. It has been very intentionally programmed in, or maybe I should say programmed out, to prevent anyone looking past a simple google search. Their social conditioning forbids it and renders it not worth their time.
People can look up paragraphs on top of paragraphs discussing people's simple "spiritual" awakenings, to the point that many now feel they don't have to do it themselves, hell, it's all online.
Brother... I have given up on trying to tell anyone anything. Now I focus on my own small circle, and I do my best to keep it fairly positive, in my own little world. Let the rest of the world take care of itself. You are worrying over things beyond anyone's ability to overcome. I realized years ago I am not for general consumption, and outside of here I don't really mention sacraments or even things like meditation unless someone else brings it up and seems genuinely interested. (Nobody does)
I wrote and published a book, and did my best to keep it very simplistic after rereading my first few pages and realizing that literally nobody else cares enough to even begin to look at the realizations and revelations I have come to. I went back and started it over again and wrote it for the short attention span world we live in now. Not sold very many, but I do get small royalty checks every 90 days lol. (very small) I guess I am following the same line as all the rest of the people who feel they have been seeking long enough to find... something.
The big boss you have to beat is your own subconscious trying to make you think you have to change things. Live it day by day, and time flies like mad. Before you know it the sun will not come up for you one of these days, and your time here will be spent. Try somehow to find pleasure in the little things that fill up the fleeting time we have here. Smile at the rainbows, and take pleasure in the love of your family, or your dog, or just watching the rabbits playing in the back yard. The time will pass before you know it.
Much love and respect brother.