I didn't have to ask last night, I was "informed" and the message was a vision of a cap with an offering of bread, apple, meat, and ale burned in the fire........so I weighed out 5 grams (one more g than the last session) from a big cap, asked for the vision I needed, and munched it. As the effects came on I gathered the stuff to offer, and built a large fire in my stone circle which is about 20 yards west from where these mushrooms grew. I put the offering on a stone "altar" in the north and then used a slow rhythmic motion around the fire to get "dizzy" (I'm sure the muscaria was helping, drooling was evident but not distracting or excessive although I could see someone getting hung up on that which would be an important lesson for the individual IMHO, yeah I remember and my feet itched too, weird) :teeth:
Last night was a very "Earthy" working and even the sky said "not up here, it's down below". There was owl (eastern screech for sure, they live right here all the time) in the hemlock trees right next to me and it's calls have it's own rhythmic beats to them. The one that makes the call itself and another that is the quiet time in between them. I found that I instinctively synched my breathing pattern to this rhythm. My exhalations correlated with it's call while my pause, inhalation, pause, correlated with the "quiet time" in between calls. Not sure how long that lasted. Ahhh, time is basically meaningless. This overall mix had the effect of loosing the "normal" daily boundaries of my physical body quite effectively but without clouding my thinking and cognizance, like alcohol would. I can very clearly remember the fine details of not being able to do anything about it, which was the ego having to give in, having to say "well, I'm not driving this body right now". Body drunk is a semi-accurate report in my limited experience but it is not really that either, it's very difficult to describe. My legs and below all transformed into tree wood and disappeared into the cold wet ground, where I found huge power, again very difficult to put into words because they can't do it justice. I tapped mother earth......and we liked it! :teeth: I could sense all the tree's around me and the plant's drawing up lifeblood.......water.......which WE as a race are poisoning. They said so, the earth said so and "they" said WE are right there with them, drawing on our own poisons. That sat me down on the ground and I cried! Tears falling on Moist Mother Earth....she came and wrapped my pathetic self up in blanket of warmed spring air....must of been something I needed......or I'm nut's....probably both! So if the drooling wasn't bad enough crying doesn't help with that at all.
Mother.....LOVE.......it's not about me alone......it's about US ALL.
So I'm using this as a sacrament in conjunction with what I see as my own religious/spiritual practice. There is no book for this, there is no way to know beforehand if it is right or wrong, but I think using the major seasonal transitions, the equinoxes and the solstices as the pattering for working is definitely spot on for me. There are no god names although we can agree on some and use them if we like, there are no goddess names either but we can do the same. These are labels that humans have created with languages in an attempt to understand. We are labelers and creators of signs that can only be traced to the point of self reference. No one is right, no one knows for sure, it isn't about thinking, it's about doing, and I'm hopefully learning my own way by doing it.
I'm not real sure what time it was but the final act was burning the offerings on the big pile of coals. Funny I was really hungry and thirsty too and everything that could satisfy the grumbly tumbly and the thirst I put into the fire and burned (a very good example of getting into the sacrifice through personal sacrifice. I think this is the true meaning of it and I was taught how to do it. The powers that be don't want something that doesn't mean anything to me, they want me to FEEL the actual loss, and then I realized that there was no ownership in the first place, and that is the real delusion from which I suffer.) This is also when the skunks showed up......really close but they did not cross the stone circle line, imagine that, and I'm talking feet away close as in you can definitely touch them close, tripping balls on amanita muscaria, in the middle of a spring ritual working and it too was a very humbling experience.........they didn't spray me but they definitely could have! :headbang: I am grateful!
I don't know if any of that blather makes any sense.......it's just what happened last night. :teeth: Something said, "We're not red, we're yellow and this is right for you" I have to go explore all of the pine tree groves I that I know of.
I'm sure there will be more lessons realized as distillations, extractions, and crystallization's happen, literally and metaphorically speaking.
And so that was my heathen Easter celebration, and now it's time to plant the garden!
Edited by Arathu, 18 March 2012 - 10:23 AM.
Sunks...gotta tell you about the skunks!
