All the trips have made me look at others different too, and not just myself.
We are all messed up, and I mean every single one of us.
And we have no idea how bad some people are without living in their heads.
Since we cant do that well just gonna have to take their words for it.
Neim you're right man some people do need those meds to live no doubt.
But I've come to not want to mess my brain up any worse than it is already.
Sorry its how I feel, once you start big pharm good luck getting away.
I dont want to have to pop a pill every day the rest of my life if it changes the person I am.
I dont want to be a guinea pig till we find what works, while the whole time scrambling my brain
I've smoked pot for 19yr it is my form of medication cause it works for me
The meds work for you though and I'm happy for that!
You just gotta take them now and dont forget a day man cause you know how that goes
What I'm about to say may be pointless.
But being one that has been around and seeing some shit.
Some people with serious brain issues should probably stay away from dosing of any kind.
I've wigged out on mush several times, its not just lucy that can twist your brain.
And I've known people to flip shit and never be right from dosing too.
Just play it safe man is all I'm saying,
you never know when that 2gr dose puts your face through the hole in the floor ya know
I am glad when people that need meds fing the right ones and are doing well on them but for me I am one that perscripton meds ..I get thoes weird side effects that happen in a small percentage of people I am the odd ball when it comes to medication
I have tried lots of herbals too and find that lemon balm fresh from the garden works well for me all spring
getting out on 40below winter days getting the sun on my face works for the winter
I have been trying 5htp supliments and am liking them but I got one kind that didnt work as well as the other ones so I stopped taking them they were not working the greatest
and I ended up after 2 months felt like crap and needed something so I started taking them again and feeling better
I also use valarian it is a weak one at times but it is the little bit i need anyway sometimes it is better to use very low doses for relief
If you are on medication from the doctor do not miss one or stop taking it or never mix with alcohol if there is a warning about that too this is where the big probems come from
I had 6 or so months worth of different trials of medication maybe trying them all back to back was not helpful either you need one out of your system before adding another one but the doctor had me do it this way
2 weeks one type had issues
2 weeks on another i had issues
for 6 months the last one I was on it for 3-4 weeks and was really trying to give it a really good try cause the doctor couldnt believe that all of them are showing me bad effects
anyway I stopped drinking but really wanted to one night so I didnt take the pill this is where your brain thinking gets all messed up
I have only atempted suiside with medication mixed with alcohol and I see myself as an alcoholic it is for life I cannot say that one day I will not wanna drink so bad i do not care and drink no matter what I have in me
even tho I do not drink anymore I might one day again and mixing this stuff has serious side effects
I have been depressed for along time :) in and out of it not non stop I have the swings most of the time I am manic "hyper" just do before thinking sometimes but i get stuff done even if I cannot I do ;)
when I have my really bad times its been once a month for up to a week or a week in 2-3 months if I am doing good "times when I wanna die or I really "do not care"
but I have had these feelings for so long I know how to cope read write nap and cry let it out somehow
at these times I feel like I am feeling everyones suffereing here on earth
just think of it this way when you are so depressed but there is no reason behind it you just feel this way that isnt not worth it you do not care or you wanna die
no reason well maybe we are feeling the weight of the worlds suffering ??
some of us that do not make it are truley gods children they are too pure to have to feel this suffering they cannot do it and .... we miss you and love you but you cannot stop god when he calls back his angels
;) I have worked hard and played even higher ....I can stick it out here and help others like me when they are having a ruff time I hope I come across them when they need it this way it really does help us when we have hard times too cause even helping one person is suffering you do not feel when you feel it all ;)
the feeling of we are all one love and hurt it swings both ways