We've already got a thriving "What Music are You Listening To Now" thread.
How about a...
What Music About Your LIfe/Past (With Discussion) can you share with us? What's the story?
thread?
I have a diagnosis of Bipolar type I disorder. It's a serious mental illness that about 1% of 2% of the world has.
This song pretty much encapsulates the gist of bipolar disorder:
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Assemblage 23 --- "Bipolar"
Lyrics:
I haven't felt so alive in years
The sun is shining down on me
My eyes are welling up with tears
Tears of joy, tears of ecstasy
Emotions I once kept concealed
Now flow freely like a river
Life's great mysteries revealed
Love's great promises delivered
I hate my life, I want to die
I was just pretending all this time
A mask I wear so I don't bare
My soul to the cold, harsh world out there
Try to prevail but only fail
Each time on a grander and grander scale
My life is worthless and so am I
I hate my life I want to die
The landscape rises to meet my feet
The sky descends to fill my arms
For once I finally feel complete
For once I know I can't be harmed
All I know is light and love
I feel that I could live forever
While others' troubles seem to grow
I have no problems whatsoever
I hate my life, I want to die
I was just pretending all this time
A mask I wear so I don't bare
My soul to the cold, harsh world out there
Try to prevail but only fail
Each time on a grander and grander scale
My life is worthless and so am I
I hate my life I want to die
The epiphany that came to fall
Finally helped me reconcile
What I felt wasn't joy at all
All this time it was just denial
I hate my life, I want to die
I was just pretending all this time
A mask I wear so I don't bare
My soul to the cold, harsh world out there
Try to prevail but only fail
Each time on a grander and grander scale
My life is worthless and so am I
I hate my life I want to die
My Story:
Probably the most traumatic part of having bipolar disorder, and I've never spoken about this here on the forum before, is that I was institutionalized for 3 months in a state-operated long-term mental health treatment facility.
When they showed it to my parents (I was 17) they showed them the mansion part of the hospital. It really was on beautiful land surrounded by parks, nature, lakes, and it had a really freaking nice mansion with lots of fireplaces in it and stuff.
Yeah, I NEVER got to see that or even stay in it.
The place was some kind of shitty rundown and abandoned summer camp.
We had NO therapy, group or individualized whatsoever to speak of.
It sucked.
Because I was a minor at the time, the State took custody of me. My parents couldn't get me out if they tried (and they did).
A few months before I was admitted there there was a death. Because staff fucked up and put one teenage girl into an improper hold she choked to death.
I have LOTS of stories about that place and others, but I figure for now that'll be enough.
Do YOU have a song that tells a story about your life from your present or your own past? You can be as specific or as vague as you wish.
Just keep in mind to keep your privacy intact here! It's cool to share, but don't share TOO MUCH!
I don't wanna be the ONLY person posting in this you know!
It can be serious or silly!
Music reminds us of things from our own present lives or from our past.
Let's post some cool tunes that tell a story about all of us, eh?
Edited by niemandgeist, 02 March 2016 - 05:21 PM.