Just made a post here and felt like starting a new topic for this.
The two experiments are written down here. The "death" will follow in a week or two, I'm not ready to talk about it.
The Report is very short, I hope it's ok nonetheless. I'm not an experienced writter, bear with me. Ok here we go.
First experience, 2 mid-sized A. Muscaria caps, dried.
Male 22 years old, +/- 85-90kg weight.
Set: Very nervous because I've read lots of bullshit about this mushroom.
Excited because I waited for these moment for a long time.
Brave because I thought I'm a cool guy for trying it.
Setting: I choose my home because I love to trip at home, no matter what substance.
Even though the mushroom smells like grilled chicken when you burn it, the taste is bitter and disgusting. I always make small parts and mix it into a smoothie or something. I have not felt any effects for the first 90 minutes but then felt a light body buzz. Light visuals have appeard and I felt like I'm way too big for my room. Everything started to look out of proportion.
Confusing mindset but very calm. No nausea and no vomitting. Increased saliva production, huge pupils.
Body temprature started to rise and sweat covered my entire body. It felt like a mild toxication but after smoking a single hit of a Joint, I started to feel much better. The body feeling which was demanding and inelegantly, started to get "fluffy". I felt like I'm sitting on a wave and started to move like that. The optics were very mild like I have them when I eat 1g of magic mushrooms.
After about 5-6 hours, all symptoms disapeared and it left me with a clear mind.
I have dreamd vivid that night, but I do not belive that it was because I ate the shrooms. The dreams were not much different from what I dream regulary so I think there were no noticeable effects on my dream state.
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Three years pass,
Second experience, 4 mid-sized A. Muscaria caps, dried.
Male 25 years old, +/- 85-90kg weight.
Set: Excited as always when I prepare myself for a psychedelic journey.
VERY tired. It was 1am and my plan was to fell asleep very fast.
Setting: I choose my home because it felt right the last time.
1 Avocado, 1 Mango, 1 Apple and 4 caps of A. Muscaria were mixed together into a shake and I drank it while I was smoking a Joint. This time it took only 1 hour for the first effects. My vision started to change dramaticaly and with increased speed. When I eat P. Cubensis or P. Semlienceata, I always have a sudden and powerful impact on my body as the first sign of the trip. With A. Muscaria the body feeling changes slowly, comparable to micro doses of MDMA (20-50mg). But what I saw, what was once my bedroom, changed to Alice in Wonderland within minutes. Only DMT has managed to change my optics faster than this.
At first I was lying on my bed and had my eyes closed. This was about an hour after I ate it. Very colorful fractals of light started to emerge from the vast emptines that I was beholding at first. But as the seconds passed, my vision became more dramatic. I can not compare the visuals to DMT, LSD or any other psychedelic that I have consumed, because the visions seemed to be determined. I felt like being trapped in a Kalaidoscope of dreams that I had and situations from my past. And I lost track and could not make a difference from being awake or not.
And then the most awesome and gruesome thing happend.
The CEV (Closed-Eye-Visuals) became real. I was trapped in a dream-like situation.
I must tell you that I grew up very close to a village that was bombed down by the U.S. & Nato for several months.
I did not expect to remember dreams that I have forgotten, and I wished so bad I would have never remembered.
Kids that grew up with me and never reached the age of 10 were standing before me in my visions, asking: "Hey, Neptune! You survived the war! We knew that we have to keep hope, that this war would end and we could live in peace. But what are you doing out there, in europe? Why did you leave us? Are you doing well?". Fuck that was really a dramatic moment in my life.
The visions were a mix of stuff that really happend in my original village where I grew up. But there were also things that could not be real. As I started my conversation with my dead childhood friends, the sand became purple. The trees turned to green laser-like beings and the sky was nothing more than fire. I realised that I am sleeping and this was my first and only lucid dream that I ever had.
The dream seemed to be endless. At first it was easy to handle because all that I had to overcome were my feelings towards my dead friends. This was a long time ago and I've had accepted that I have survived, and they did not. But my dream started to became gruesome as soldiers reached my village and started to burn down our gardens, which we were depending on and killing our animals. I felt all that pain again that my family and friends had to live through and I realised that I have to wake up this instant because it was too much to handle.
Amazingly easy to wake up. I was nervous and thought at first that I will simply not wake up and that this is what I have to go through in my experience, but that was not the case. Just as fast and easy as I've fallen asleep, I woke up. I cried for 15 minutes and called my mom and were talking about our time back there.
The rest is to personal so I don't want to share it.
The entire experience lasted a little bit longer then the first one..After 8 hours I fell asleep for good and I've dreamed amazingly beautiful things for the future to come. The dreams were not lucid but very vivid and I could recal 5 dreams in that night. 4 were in the future and one in the present.
The time from my conversation with mom to me falling asleep were spend with my ex-girlfriend. I actually never told her my background and felt like this was the right moment. She helped me a lot to stay calm. I was very very confused but calm all the time.
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2 Years later.
Third experience, 7 mid-sized A. Muscaria caps, dried.
Male 27 years old, +/- 85-90kg weight.
This happend 2 weeks ago and I'm not ready to talk about it.
The only thing I can say is, this time I took it at a remote place outside in the nature in the swiss mountains at the lake. It was the most amazing day of my life.
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WARNING: A.Muscaria can destroy you. NEVER start with moderate or high doses as you have no idea how the concentration of the alkaloids is in the mushroom. I recommend 2 mid sized caps for the first experience, because most of my friends and me didn't feel enough after 1 cap.
My trip report seems to be gentle and easy, but this is because of mind setting. I've had my 100+ Acid trips and lots of mushrooms trip to. DMT has been consumed dozens of times and also other psychedelics like 2CB and Salvia. I have had 2 badtrips in my life. For some odd reasons, I am able to handle my mind even when my friends start to freak out. There were some experiences where friends were hospiltalized and I felt like eating more and more.
Psychedelic adventures are very individual, don't think that you will have similar experiences like me. I wrote this down so that you see what is possible, what can happen to other people, in this case me, when the mushroom is eaten.
GREETINGS . BLESSINGS. LOVE.
Be safe!
Edited by Neptunechild, 07 March 2016 - 07:42 PM.
