The toe is KILLING ME! Just had to stand on it for 8 hours lol My girls are adults and we are pretty honest with them about our uhhh... pursuits. I guess it is all part of the whole living here for free thing, you got to put up with Mom and Dad's crazyness.
As for things becoming more clear, I am not sure where my beautiful trip sort of soured on me. Overall it was a fantastic thing. It's just somehow I did not get that refreshed and recharged feeling from this one. Maybe it is because my wife is back home helping her brother pass. (He passed this evening) so maybe I felt guilty for even going there a little bit if that makes any more sense to you than it does to me. I even made sure it was ok with the wife first. I purged really really hard about two hours in, and never really felt good physically for the next 48 hours. I felt like I had vaguely poisoned myself.
As strong as this trip was it was mostly over in 12-14 hours, as far as visuals, the glow, all of the stuff I expected to last much longer. I have had an incredible face melting trip that lasted for like 30 hours on Pachanoi alone. That time I played music for hours and hours. This time I was so out of it I could not even play guitar. The visuals on the pachanoi trip were like rainbow flames taking over the background of the entire room changing it into a beautiful psychedelic world. This time I never had any of the rainbow overlay but everything was vacillating and moving too quickly like the focus was hard to maintain, but except for two hours or so where I was nearly completely out of body, I was stuck here in reality in a way that was vaguely uncomfortable and tension was felt throughout the experience. Not like I had a bad trip, just the first time I have done cactus and not had a tremendously positive and loving experience.
I tried to play music here and there throughout, but could not focus on the music. After the big purge I just laid back into the pillows and put on a long running cd and literally went on a journey...to somewhere behind my eyeballs. I was like soaring and ebbing and flowing with the music and the frequencies, and then the cd ended and I found myself yanked back here. I got up and put in another cd and went to the bathroom and scared the hell out of myself seeing myself in the mirror on the bathroom door! Literally jumped out of my skin practically lol.
After 6 hours or so I began to come down pretty fast, mentally anyhow. I dosed at 1:00 PM in the afternoon. At 9:00 pm I cracked some beers and finally loosened up enough to play some music, but felt so rotten I didn't drink much or play much. Usually I drink like a fish and rock out all night when I trip. I honestly felt like I had made a mistake cutting these cactus that I had grown and loved. They are both still living as I only harvested part of them. I felt like I got punished for doing this when I had guilt and that very well may be.
I sweatted profusely when I was zooming through the universe after the big purge. I had to wash all the bedding as I sweatted out the smell and taste of the cactus, which I also could not get rid of. That taste stuck with me through the next day. I doubt I will be cutting any more cactus for the next year or two to be honest and when I do it will be the Pachanoi that I had such a good and powerful experience on that last time. It must have one helluva mescaline percentage for me to have tripped like that on a little over two feet of it. I am so sad in a way that I did not reap the positive experience which I so badly needed. I badly missed the interaction that usually happens here on topia as I go through these experiences as well, so thank you for chiming in.
So that is the long and short of it I guess. I think next time I will just leave the computer off and enjoy myself, but this time the wife was not here to indulge with me so I was on here throughout most of it. It was a powerful experience and I don't think Bridgessii alkaloids enhanced it at all, I think they made it burn way too fast and finish too soon. I will try Bridgessii again some day but it will be a while, and when I do it will be by itself and not mixed with Pachanoi.
Peace and thanks again for chiming in...