This thread has taken a new direction from where it started, but is IMO even more of interest with the opening of discussion of Magic and Ritual.
dp, please do not ever feel like "the insane repeater". There are many ears here now that would not know what has been said here before, and your experiences and opinions are always most welcome.
SpS, I believe you would also at least encourage caution, as none of this is wisely delved into with immaturity and selfish goals, and I know you are neither.
It is my opinion that no amount of time studying and learning can prepare for all the potential's, and if understanding and intent is not clear, Ritual and spelling is guaranteed to go very wrong. There are too many who entered into the usage of Magic for all the wrong reasons and did so carelessly. It is not a plaything or amusement to be toyed with, and for those I have seen, who would delude themselves otherwise, it did not go well.................................................