I'd like to get you guys' insights on my first mushroom experience. Your thoughts and opinions are welcome. I finally got my friend over to be a trip sitter for me. I grew and dehydrated my own mushrooms. Anyway he'd done mushrooms before several times, and just generally knows how to handle himself. To learn how to trip, and get some experience under my belt, this first "trip" was only 1.75 grams. But I did feel it, even if it wasn't what you'd call a full on mushroom trip. It made me very... animate. I moved around a lot more than I normally would. Felt very fluid, which is a bit strange I guess. I really couldn't just sit on the couch. I needed to be up moving around, even if it was just walking around my house.
Also a sort of confidence came over me, almost a feeling of being powerful. I felt like I could master any undertaking I chose, if just given a little bit of time to learn about it. That feeling of nagging doubt was gone, and replaced by more confidence than I've felt in a long time, maybe than I've ever felt. I wouldn't say that I'm normally some unconfident person, but rather that I have all the same doubts and indecision that every person experiences when they face something unknown, whatever that may be. A new job, a new hobby, working on something, the usual stuff. But not when I was on the mushrooms. When I thought of those things, I felt nothing but confidence and a sense that in fairly short order, I could master any of it. It was as if the tables had turned, and now it was the one that should have been unconfident, in the face of me. I like to post pictures and memes and videos and such, to help me illustrate my point. Please do not concern yourself with who the person in this gif is supposed to be. But rather just look at it for how he must feel, if this were actually real. Its not, but I think it accurately conveys the way the mushrooms made me feel.
The next thing is something that I also found to be odd. Well I guess the whole thing was odd, since that would be the nature of mushrooms and especially since this was my first time using them. But I did find it weird. I was having thoughts, that didn't really seem like me. Well, not the me I know, anyway. Or not the me that I've tried to make myself into, and have been quite successful in doing. And not the me I'm comfortable with. For some reason, this scene came to mind as the best description of what I'm trying to convey. The subject matter of the scene is unrelated to my situation, but I think its still a good representation. I'm not sure if any of you watch this show, so I'll give a short description. Its called "Supernatural". So we have the king of hell, who is an evil demon. He sits on the throne in the absence of Lucifer. He's being "cured" of his evil, by Sam, who has captured him. It forces him to sort of let his inner self come out. But like me he really doesn't seem to be aware of what is in there. Keep in mind he is not normally like this, not at all. He's absolutely evil. The very end, captures what I'm trying to convey. The last few seconds. He sort of realizes what he's saying/thinking, and is kind of like "WTF.. that's weird..."
That part right there, is what I'm talking about. Having thoughts that didn't feel like me. Unless maybe they're from childhood or something. Can't be sure. Has anyone else had this happen? I found it to be somewhat unsettling. Anyway here is the vid:
Thoughts and opinions?
Edited by bennylava, 08 January 2017 - 09:20 PM.